If I rewrote this, it just might sound the same…

Waning Moon
Neptune Retrograde

Has it really been 16 days since I’ve been here last?  It doesn’t seem like it’s been that long, but I suppose it has.  It’s been a very long couple of weeks.  It was a few weeks where real life intruded on writing life.  Things still are not that great, but are good enough that I can get a bit done.  I have been thinking of stepping down as writer for the e-fed I write for lately.  Its a lot of work, and I’m fast running out of inspiration.  Not to mention with all the drama I have going on I’m just too exhausted to keep writing it for long.  And it seems like no one much cares anymore anyway, the fed has basically been abandoned.  The only reason I am still writing is because the fed is run by my boyfriend, Steve.  But I just can’t keep doing it, its too tiring and I’ve lost my enthusiasm for it. 

On another note, I haven’t had a lot of time to write for Helium lately.  Which has been disappointing, but I’m working on it now.  I wrote two articles that are very important to me this week, and are written from personal experience.  I was hesitant to write them at first, its not an experience I share with many, but ultimately I think it will be a good thing.  And with that said, I should get back to the day job.  Until next time, keep reading and take care.  ~Stef

Why people cut themselves: http://www.helium.com/items/1184504-why-people-cut-themselves

How to stop cutting yourself: http://www.helium.com/items/1183241-how-to-stop-cutting-yourself


If I had a license to kill, all of your would be in trouble

Waxing Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Jupiter Retrograde
Neptune Retrograde

That quote is one of my own.  I thought it added a nice ring to the day.  It has been a long week.  I prefer not going into details, but let’s just say my entire life went to hell and still has not fully come back.  And unfortunately all this drama and chaos has caused my writing to come to a screeching halt.  But hopefully things are settling down slightly now, they are by no means solved, but I can get back to doing something besides trying not to have a nervous breakdown. 

Oh, I did go to tour a winery this weekend.  That was enormous fun.  I am ashamed to admit that while I live a mere 10 miles from Napa, California, I have never been to a winery.  This one is called Castillo Di Amorosa.  Or in english, the Castle of Love.  It is modeled after a 14th-15th century castle.  It was truly amazing, I was stunned by the whole place.  They had a replica dungeon, complete with authentic implements of torture.  And you all know my slightly twisted side loved that.  I even got a fantastic story idea while touring the place.  They looked at me like I was insane when I demanded a napkin so I could write it down and not forget.  I don’t want to give away too much, but I think this will be my novel for Nano this year.

So, onto links.  Unfortunately I only have two to give you today.  They are the articles I wrote for the Marketplace that unfortunately didn’t get published.  But they are still on Helium, so all is well that ends well.  And I don’t want any comments on the first one, its embarassing just to post the link lol.

How dirty talk improved my relationship: http://www.helium.com/items/1150233-dirty-talk-improving-relationships

One-night stand etiquette: http://www.helium.com/items/1150326-one-night-stand-one-night-stand-advice

And for the record, the second is not exactly something I have experience with.  But I did have fun writing it anyway.  ~Stef